WOW.
So last night I had a major moment. And today was a spectacular day because of it. One of my family members told me that when I was drunk I was kissing another (nonrelated) family member on the neck and holding his hands and cuddling with him. I vaguely remember that night. I didn’t think anyone had seen me. I also don’t remember kissing his neck. What the fuck was I thinking?
I told my husband. I haven’t wanted to drank since. The family member (a very close friend) told me I am a different person while drunk. They told me that drinking made me an evil person and I shouldn’t do it.
I have heard this before…This time it was different. I don’t know why. It just was. I feel good today. I feel stronger than I have in a long time. My mom told me today she was proud of me. She said, “Looks like you are finally getting your shit together.” Holy shit. I can’t express how big that is.
The other night when I posted about wanting to wake my son up and cuddle him; he woke up and fell asleep with me. It was just what I needed.
agirlrebuildingherlife 